Monday, February 15, 2010
Mata Amritanandamayi Center (or M. A. Center) San Ramon, CA
10200 Crow Canyon Road
Castro Valley, CA 94552 USA
Website: www.amma.org
Tel: 510.537.9417 Fax: 510.889.8585
Email: macenter@ammachi.org
The Sanskrit term darshan means, "vision", and it is used to describe the meeting with a holy person, especially a Self Realized master. Amma's darshan in unique. As the embodiment of supreme motherhood, she welcomes every person who comes to her, listens to his or her problems, offers advice and guidance, and brings reassurance to a troubled heart.
Over time, Amma's popularity has risen to the point where in India she has been known to individually hug over 50,000 people in one day, sitting sometimes for over 20 hours. Amma travels all around the world to receive all her children around the globe.
Timothy Conway, Ph.D., author of the book Women of Power and Grace, describes Amma as "one of the most glorious lights to appear in the history of religion. Just her stamina - embracing these millions of people one by one, day after day, without a break, all over the world-is some kind of divine gift. No mere human resources could accomplish this."
As Judith Cornell, an internationally acclaimed speaker, and an award winning writer, in her book, "Amma Healing the Heart of the World", says, "for eleven years, I had simply perceived Amma, as a sweet "Hugging Saint." As my limited vision expanded, it was awesome to discover that Amma was one of India's most illustrious sages. She heals on a massive scale - Far beyond that of any saint or healer, I had ever known or read about."
One of Amma's senior disciples says, "Mother is an extraordinary saint, in the number of people she intentionally instills spirituality into - even to extent of hugging every single person who comes to her. Basically, every one is potentially what Mother is. Mother's presence is invoking that reality (of divinity) within that person."
Friday, February 12, 2010
What to Expect During 2010: Revelations
The Sisterhood Consciousness, The Year of Giving, The Year of the Hero
The Astrology Revolution ™
Each year we look forward with anticipation and hope wondering what does the New Year hold? Some very Interesting planetary alignments herald in 2010. Many of which will underscore the discontent we all feel, but that is more poignantly felt by certain members of society, our weakest links, and those truly victimized. The Lunar eclipse in the sign of Cancer that ushers in the New Year on New Years Eve foretells of this. Families, mothers, women, single mothers, and children feel the effects of economic struggles first. This doesn't suggest passive acceptance, to the contrary the Lunar Eclipse that heralds in 2010 along with both Mercury and Mars retrograde suggest a growing resistance that seemingly comes out of no where. Making 2010 the Year of the Woman! The fight for children and the family sits securely on the shoulders of women in 2010. This doesn't suggest passive acceptance, to the contrary the Lunar Eclipse that heralded in 2010 along with both Mercury and Mars retrograde suggest a growing resistance that seemingly comes out of no where. Making 2010 the Year of the Woman! A year when women unite in a sisterhood of sorts.
The fight against injustice and the rights of the down trodden and weak take hold with the Saturn-Pluto squares throughout the year that make 2010 another year of political, financial and sexual scandals. The battle against good and bad is in our face, our backyard, it's everywhere. These same squares make everyone fight for the rights of others, take sides, pitch in and help out. There will be a call to arms if you will, with Jupiter in Pisces our hearts are open to give, to help out, to sacrifice our selfish desires, and pitch in. Injustice is met with a helping hand in 2010. Jupiter in Pisces makes 2010 also the year of giving. A year od self sacrifice, unconditional love, giving when we have no more to give, faith in what is good and looking inward at ourselves is what makes 2010 a turning point year. The fight against injustices and the willingness to help others and give of ourselves is what's ahead in 2010. Will we see injustices? Yes we will. Will we idly stand by and let them continue? Not in 2010; the year or the Woman, and The year of the Hero.
The Lunar eclipse in Cancer of Dec 31st was unusual because it is closer to the Earth, and the Moon is in its own sign, making its effects powerful. Full Moons have a tendency of being very emotional and bringing to a head anything that we have been keeping inside. Be careful for accidents as many could be more accident prone, but more importantly be careful of pushing people who are already stressed out over the edge. Emotions are charged and that little bit of champagne on New Years eve could be the trigger. There's no doubt that this eclipse could predict the death of a prominent female in the months afterward.
Through 2012 we are of course in a cycle where spiritual changes are dominating and we are forced to let go of materialism as we knew it. We are in a new spiritual cycle of growth and change. We may not be cognizant of it but that's what's happening. When you are in the middle of change you don't always know what's going on. 2010 could see many new and exciting scientific breakthroughs, cures and many "firsts that will help us evolve and take us into the future. Additionally we could see economical or ecological disasters that affect masses of people the likes of which history are made of. Whenever economics and personal finances take a turn downwards an opportunity for great spiritual growth rises, and that comes with its own new blessings. Like the yin and yang symbol when economics are on top spiritual growth suffers when economics take a turn the opportunity for spiritual growth and change predominates, the new -New Age Phenomena is here!
Whenever we have the outer planets aspecting each other we have situations on planet Earth that affect masses of people, natural disasters and evtns that seem to happen suddenly and unexplainably. This began with the Saturn-Uranus oppositions which trigger the social, revolution of the 60's. Was it a time of turmoil, of course it was. The 60's changed the world as we know and caused a "revolution". The woman's liberation movement was sparked by this aspect too. The 60's changed the mass consciousness, and gave birth to a new spiritual awakening. The aspects now are just as volatile for mass uprisings to occur. How volatile, peaceful or bloody could be dependent on the Sun Spot cycle and it's effects on our collective consciousness. We know that the Sun spot cycle has been at an all time low, but that could change and change abruptly. If it changes in the 2nd half of the year 2010 and becomes more active, like it's supposed to the collective thought and masses arise. The Earth becomes volatile.
January 18th , Jupiter the planet of luck enters Pisces and our idealism and interest in giving and philanthropy increases. Jupiter in Pisces might bring the death of a hugely popular figure and worldwide mourning. Keep a check on yourself for idleness though. In February Jupiter in Pisces aspects both Saturn in Libra and Mars in Leo. This aspect is known as the finger of God, or the Yod. Since both signs Leo and Libra can be a bit lazy at times, this Yod channels the unproductive energy into daydreaming, or better charitable causes. Many people don't easily fit into a 9-5 job and need a more artistic or spiritual outlet anyways and this Yod could show them the way. As Jupiter enters the sign of Pisces the philanthropist, we will all realize that no matter how tough times are we should still make sure no child goes hungry, abandoned or abused. Caring will become vogue once again. No matter what country you are in this is a problem throughout the world. The South Node is transiting Cancer, hunger; world hunger will be in the news again.
Uranus the planet of volatility enters where it transitied March -April 1929, and then again in Dec 1929 Dec 1931, the depth of the American Great Depression. That doesn't mean we are facing another Great Depression, Uranus has been in Aries before and there was no Great Depression. To the contrary we could rise up through the energy created by Saturn in Libra another cardinal sign and Pluto in Capricorn and use this great energy potential to overcome the odds individually, collectively or both. It's up to us.
Later in the year Jupiter enters Aries and joins Uranus creating a time of rapid change. We all want faster cars, computers, cell phones and gadgets with more speed and power in samller and smaller packages and we are sure to get them this year. Advances will come so fast it will be like the Techie age all over again. High tech and nano tech take off in 2010!
It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair, we had everything before us, we had nothing before us, we were all going direct to heaven, we were all going direct the other way...Charles Dickens, A Tale of Two Cities 1859
Releasing Fears or Needs Prayer
So I asked my dear friend Judith, the owner of A Peace of the Universe bookstore at Shea/Scottsdale in Scottsdale, AZ. She spoke wisdom. She said I cannot control what another says, only my reaction to it. And more importantly, if I am reacting so severely to it, then there is a "piece" for me to work on.
Those who are closest to us, she explained, have the greatest power to affect our state of mind. Especially when we have done a lot of work on ourselves, and are spiritually developed, often not much from the outer world "gets" to us. As we evolve spiritually we may feel more peace of mind than ever, and it is harder to disturb.
Enter someone near and dear to us.
So here's the prayer. Say this to out loud, to yourself, before you go to sleep. It gives your unconscious and other-than-conscious parts of your mind the opportunity to work on it:
"Consciously, I am aware that I have this fear of [insert your comment] or this need of [insert], and that through the gift of my free will, God, which you gave me, I am gifting this over to you.
If you want to show me where in my cellular self this is being held or where it came from, show me in my dreams tonight and give me the wisdom to heal it."
I said this several days in a row before going to sleep. I remember having vivid dreams. Several days later I palpably noticed a positive improvement. I thought about the same incident and the charge was lost.
Turns out that there was a piece of self-love that I was missing-- a part of me still wanted and perhaps even "needed" to be spoken to gently and be loved and approved of -- so her words hit that wound like an arrow.
What was even more interesting is that i let go of that piece, and gave the situation some distance, I reconnected with this person and experienced a greater lightness and harmony in the connection.
Here's another example of how this works. A friend of mine said she had a fear every time her husband left to go to work. He was a police officer. She had a fear of losing him. She used this prayer and in the process discovered that she was afraid of losing him, as she had lost him in a (presumed) "past life." During that period in history there was no internet or phone, etc. so he went off to battle and never returned. That longing and fear lingered into the present for her, and that present moment experience reactivated that fear.
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
An Amazing New Way to Instantly Create Any Reality You Desire
This was the most fascinating class. It was free. But at first I felt fidgety. I didn’t want to stay long. The guy teaching it seemed a bit long-winded in his explanation. Boy am I glad I did not leave, I stayed through it. It may have changed my life in fact. Instantly.
The guy who taught it, Keith Varnum, himself has spent 40 years in the healing arts. He has had masters and teachers of all varieties, shapes and sizes. What’s funny is even the most advanced shamans say that the ceremonies that they perform, the feathers, the smoke, it’s all “show.” But it is a ceremony for a very special purpose. Its to distract your mind enough to get you permission to slow yourself down, to get yourself into this space.
Well Matrix Energetics gets you there immediately. None of the years of meditation, long hours of difficult yoga positions tying up yourself in a pretzel. You can actually get there instantly. As hard as it is to believe, it is true.
To access this special place of possibility Richard asked us some very important questions. And if you are reading along, take a few moments to go along with me on this journey:
1. have you ever had an experience in your life that time seemed to bend, or change, or happen differently from ordinary reality?
2. what special cartoon, mythical, saints, or other characters do you really resonate with who inspire you to enter into their morphic field?
3. have you ever experienced déjà vu? Can you take yourself to that special moment time or place?
4. What about an experience where you experienced your body differently, the physical world as more unreal, more of a flow than you can ever imagine? (in one extraordinary example Paige told the story of a man who drove headfirst through a child standing in the middle of a street. He was full speed ahead. But instead of crashing through him, the car screeched right through, and the boy and man were both equally shocked that nothing happened. The driver’s wife was on the phone at the time and she heard horrible screeching, and the man driving was shocked and feeling a bit hurt.)
5. What actually stops you from embodying, dwelling, and living within this special supreme reality all the time?
The point of all of these was that you all live in a special reality, it’s just important to look for it. And that was the other point: look for “what’s new and different in my life?”
The other phase of theory is quantum mechanics, quantum physics: the basic building blocks of the universe is energy, wave/particles. Asking ourselves “what’s the matter?” we overly focus on the most apparently dense but least relatively real aspects of ourselves. It is in focusing on our energy nature that we can perform miracles that the evolved masters on this planet, e.g. Buddha, Jesus, etc. have all performed, and that we are capable of. And we can experience in each of our lives the same miracles.
The next phase of this free demo class held at a Peace of the Universe this evening was experiential: each of us took turns standing up in the front of the circle. He then would ask to choose a point on our bodies that was tense, hurting, or otherwise drew our awareness. And then choose a second point, a reference point. A point in your body that feels “useful”. Don’t over think this. Then close your eyes, while he holds the space of oneness, of infinite possibilities in the quantum world in between his hands, each placed at these special points.
He did this for each of us. Everyone experienced a dramatic shift. Even in just a few minutes in this space, people standing up would wave back and forth, often falling back in surrender. Feeling instantly more relaxed. Sometimes beaming with a smile. Many reported experiencing waves.
I was among the first few of the dozen attendees to experience this. I stood up in center of circle. Chose a point on my forehead, and in back of my heart. Close my eyes and he held the space. Threw a pebble containing my dreams and wishes into the pool of life’s possibilities. And as I did that I felt those ripples enter my being. Or more accurately, I felt my being, my body dissolve into waves of oneness. Each wave passing through me as I became it. It became so pleasant and peaceful. I couldn’t help but crack a smile.
The woman in front of me observed my energy field turn into waves. She said, in fact, that she almost expected that I would become invisible as my body turned into waves. Keith remarked on my golden aura. What’s wild is that I was just thinking earlier during the class about hilary’s remark that I could become invisibile. And also my meditations as taught by Amma that I practice involve experiencing myself as golden. Quite the powerful feedback. And neither person made the same comment about any other individual present.
He asked us to continue remaining aware within the next 3-4 days, what is new and different in my life, financially, emotionally, physically?
So, you stand at the brink of infinite possibility. It’s easier than you think. That is, if you go beyond your thinking mind. Ask yourself these questions. Explore the quantum space that you are. You may be in store for a pleasant surprise.
Keith’s website is www.thedream.com, 602.861.2631, keith@thedream.com
Monday, November 30, 2009
What does the future hold for 2012?
This is an initial exploration of my thoughts for what the future holds for 2012 based on my latest research. Whether or not you believe in these changes doesn't matter. The fact is that countless people, cultures, and texts anticipate dramatic changes; these expectations alone are enough to affect behavior and world politics.
After carefully reviewing the research I believe the future to be a hybrid of all the above.
Let’s look at the indigenous tribes prophecies. Mayans consider 2012, specifically 12-21-2012 to be the end of time. Note this does not mean the end of the world. This means the end of one epoch the beginning of a new. Drunvalow Melchizadeck has participated as an initiate in some very special Mayan ceremonies and a representative of this culture. He has direct knowledge of a very fascinating time predicted and has an excellent youtube video that has been released. Watch it and you will learn and see.
From the Mayan perspective, the earth
Apparently David Wilcox indicated that the great pyramids of
The age of aquarius also dawned upon us in 2007, this signifies a new age of spirituality, harmony, technology, and possibility.
Interestingly on this date in Dec 21, 2012, the earth will be in the precise physical center of the galaxy. Also it will have completed its precession of the equinoxes.
There are also a 26,000 year cycle and approximately 5,000 year cycle that both culminate on this date as well. 13,000 years ago it was speculated that the poles actually reversed. The shifting of poles, which was associated with dramatic almost violent weather changes, could account for why wooly mammoths were discovered flash frozen in
It is more likely a process not a destination that something will happen on an exact date.
Other interesting astronomical facts include that the other planets appear to be experiencing dramatic changes as well. Solar flares are at an all time high, and highest in 40 years. Solar flares tend to be associated with increased accidents and agitation and the fall of the stock market.
The earth’s magnetic field is changing rapidly. Whereas pilots decades ago can rely on previous magnetic maps to navigate, now they must check these every time they take off and land.
Combine this with the fact that we have some very dramatic trends affecting us today. Knowledge is increasing exponentially, thanks to the internet boom and our increased connectivity. More knowledge was generated in 1900s than in previously 1000 years. Knowledge kept doubling every decade, then every year, now every month…approaching the speed of light.
The global economic system is at the brink of collapse, caused by greed and unsustainable practices. Other unsustainable practices are our society’s reliance on oil and other fossil fuels, overconsumption, and waste. The critical turning point we are approaching as a civilization literally force us to evolve into a new level of human being, discover advanced solutions to our problems, or perish, as have many other advanced civilizations before us. This is a daunting challenge, but one that we can tackle.
The experience of time is certainly changing. Most people are stressed because they can’t seem to pack all their experience into one single day. This is a common complaint I hear from all my most productive friends and associates.
David Wilcock, currently developing a movie Convergence with the producer of the movie Contact, states a much more promising vision. This includes the possibility of disclosure, that someday soon the government will finally reveal the truth that has been hidden in plain sight in many of the so-called “science fiction” movies…that there is life on other planets.
Some of the more promising vision include that there is a possibility for a life 100 times more beautiful and pleasant than we ever imagined in this current epoch. That we are done learning through struggle stress and suffering, a period for humanity to discover who it is, its divine nature. Wilcock believes that the Second Coming of the Messiah, the Rapture, all refer not to the physical arrival of a spiritual leader but rather the discovery of that leader within. An evolution in consciousness.
Wilcock also spoke of major world-changing events occurring more rapidly than ever, with less time in between. For example, the fall of berlin wall in 1980s followed by fall of soviet empire in 1991, then the 9/11 bombing in 2001, then the banking crisis of 2008, these were dramatic sudden changes—we will begin to see these yearly, then monthly, then weekly, then daily as we approach 2012. Each major announcement of dramatic news changes our entire world view.
2012 is a revolution of consciousness as the very least. What can we do to prepare? Meditate daily, yoga, engage in spiritual practices of one form or another that can keep you calm and centered in these challenging yet exciting years ahead. This will help make sure you are awake, aware, and tuned into what you need to do in the coming times.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Orgnonomy at Gunpoint

Philadelphia, PA. 22nd street and pine, September 1998. A gun is pointed in my face. I was parking my car for my first appointment with Dr. Herskowitz, DO, a psychiatrist, the last student personally trained by Wilhelm Reich before his death.
It happened like this: as I am opening my door to get out of my car, a 1990 Chevrolet Corsica with North Carolina plates, a large Afro-American man approaches me an asks if I am a "narc." I say no and forget about it.
I go back into my car to gather a few more belongings, and the car door is still ajar. Moments later, the same man points a gun to my face through the crack fo the car door.
He has my complete undivided attention. He tells me this is a gun and unless I do exactly as he tells me he will kill me. He tells me to leave the car, and with gun still pointed, gets in the car and forces me to get in the car as well.
His eyes are glazed as if he is high, and he starts demanding personal information. The gun is still pointed so I am not at liberty to resist. He paws through my wallet. He then asks me to take him to an ATM. I didn't know my way around Philadelphia because I moved to the area just a few months ago. We ended up in South Philadelphia where I pulled cash out of an ATM.
Next we ended up at a jewelry store, with gun hidden under his jacket we walked into a jewelry store. I attempted to charge a $2000 gold necklace charge on my AMEX and it was declined. I kept trying to hint to the employee I was in danger at the same time while not jeopardizing myself.
He got increasingly upset and we returned to the car where things escalated. Next we went to modell's sporting goods store, next door. He was belligerent to the staff and started grabbing shirts and shoes which he piled on for me to buy. He whispered that he will shoot me if I try to run away. So I am in line, charging the purchases of the clothing, and with shaky hand I try to signal to the staff that I am in danger but they do not notice.
As we are walking towards the exit, I feel increasingly alarmed that unless I get out of this situation immediately, I could be the next homicide story. As we walk through the exit gates, with the bag in his hand, the alarm goes off...apparently staff forgot to remove the tag on one of the items and the alarm went off. That is when I shouted for the police and immediately ran back into the store for cover and hid in one of the back rooms. I was concerned he may run into the building and hold everyone hostage. Instead apparently he ran outside with the bag of purchases.
This whole ordeal took place from about 10:00 AM to noon, so I was held hostage for about 2 hours.
The police arrived and took me down to the station for questioning. First they asked the staff at modell's sporting goods and then they asked the jewelry store what happened. The jewelry staff seemed incredulous that I didn't signal to them otherwise that I was in danger. Perhaps I could have indicated and written down on the receipt "call police." but the charge was declined, which I suspect because the amount was so high and such an unusual purchase.
They then took me to the station for questioning. Ted Wolkiewicz was the detective who interrogated me. I was placed into a dank room with nothing but a table, swinging lamp, and his enormous body and mine. I told him my story, which he didn't believe. He threatened obstruction of justice, jail time. I still stuck to my story. He even questioned whether this is some sort of credit card scam or gay cartel I was running.
Ted asked me the million-dollar question: "why didn't you run away sooner?" I was dumbfounded by the question. But my later answer would be "where was your fat ass when all this happened?"
Then he brought down my significant other at the time, Diane, for questioning. He said that the majority of people who come down to the station change their story because they lie, and that's why they have to treat everyone so harshly--because some may change their story under pressure and others who are telling the truth will stick with what they originally said. He threatened to interrupt one of Diane's classes to question her, but she stood firm.
The irony is that I called Dr. Herskowitz from the station apologizing that I missed the appointment because I was at the station held for questioning after a hostage situation. He later told me that he thought I was making up my story.
After giving me a lineup of possible culprits to look on the computer, Eventually they released me. But not without impounding my car and the beautiful leather jacket that my father bought me years ago in high school. They apparently were searching for prints. Weeks later, after calling repeatedly, I finally got my car back but it was ransacked; the locks were forced open. The police were unsympathetic.
Diane's sister Michelle, a probation officer, assisted by helping me get in touch with the District Attorney's office to file an official claim against the city. Eventually I was reimbursed about $1,800 for damages and the car was restored. Also she put me in touch with Inspector James Tiano, with whom I discussed my mistreatment at the hands of the city.
For weeks, months even, I was traumatized by the event, and did not want to live alone in my apartment for fear the man would track me down and return. I was also shaky and paranoid, feeling very unsafe. The police never caught the man, or at least never notified me that they did
The sunny side of the story is that this traumatic experience triggered me so intensely, a perfect state for me to do my inner work and take this into the NWTA, a men's weekend retreat. Also, to continue working with Dr. Herskowitz releasing sense of lack of physical safety. I can't say for sure whether all my fears have been cured, as I still feel unsafe at times in this planet when I think of all the violence. But at very least I am more in touch with it and know that I can survive and live through virtually anything.